I'm sitting in a café again, in my favorite place. I'm still in Norway and felt I wanted to report back after a good week. So much has happened and the inner change is in full swing.

I left for Norway a good 1.5 weeks ago. The aim of my trip was to simply do what I wanted to do, immerse myself in nature and give my creativity full rein. I just wanted to know what would happen. I also wanted to give myself experiences that I knew could push me to my limits. The start of the journey was very exciting. Driving almost a thousand kilometers in just a few days, changing places every day and waking up in a different environment. Meeting new people every day and adapting to the new circumstances. This also includes finding gas stations, supermarkets and new places to sleep every day. My trip was unplanned and therefore exciting every day.

When I arrived in Norway, it took me a few days to get used to the different climate and the new country. I'm like a chameleon that can quickly adapt to new surroundings, but I still need at least a day and a few more days to explore the environment and really settle in. This also brought the creative energy and all the new impulses needed to be processed. I was also tempted to sleep in a hammock under the stars and wake up with a view of the mountains and the lake. An exciting experience that I put into practice on my second night.

Then, after four nights, I was drawn further afield. I wanted to go further north and explore the beautiful country I was now in. I drove on and came across an impressive moorland landscape. Instead of driving to a campsite further north as planned, I decided to sleep in the great outdoors. It was my first time alone, with no one around and an approaching rain front. I made myself comfortable and felt so at home in this place that I would have liked to stay longer. During my night in the car, I was confronted with fears. I experienced the darkest night of my life, with the sounds of the river roaring in the rain next to me and intense dreams. It was just me and the protection of my car.

As the rain was accompanied by a cold snap, I continued north. I wanted to get dry and warm and was also in the mood for people and a bit more comfort after a week in a tent in wind and weather. I drove to a large hiker's hut and booked a bed in a shared room. I was happy just to be able to spend time in the warm room and enjoyed the extensive conversations with the Norwegians. At the same time, I was so incredibly exhausted and frozen through and felt like I was going to be sick. I no longer had my strength. I just wanted to sleep, my rest and warmth. I enjoyed the sauna and also the hot tub. I was constantly torn between going on or staying. I then decided to spend a few nights there and give my body the break it was longing for.

At the time, I didn't realize what was going on. I thought I had caught a cold. I then continued north to the end of the largest fjord in Norway. Despite the rain, I wanted to keep going up. I then looked for a permanent place to stay so that I could get my strength back. Now I'm in Lærdalsøyri and sitting in a nice café. I wanted to sort out my thoughts, but I feel so tired. Creativity just doesn't want to happen and I realize that I can't force it. When it fits, it just flows out of me. Then a waitress came up to me earlier and we had an interesting conversation. She immediately understood where I stand and the more I think about it, the clearer it becomes.

I've seen and experienced so much in the last 1.5 weeks, adjusting to new circumstances every day. The last time I had a temperature difference of more than 25°C compared to home. I slept in a tent every day and spent my day outside in all weathers. My body now needs time to process all of this. I pushed my limits and lived a very brave, free version of myself and a completely different life: no fixed abode, living out of the trunk, always wearing the same clothes, exposed to the weather. Now it's time to let it all sink in. The body wants space and to sort everything out internally. It doesn't want to process any impulses into new creative projects yet and it definitely doesn't want any new impulses. And this is where I find myself struggling to accept this and resisting it. I feel like I want to process all the photos, to create something new on the journey and I'm afraid that the feeling and the memory will be lost if I don't do it now. I am in the middle of a re-sorting process.

The waitress listened to me and asked me if I was an artist. Creative souls find each other and the best thing is that they understand each other without words. I didn't have to say much and she knew the process only too well herself. She asked me what I would normally do in situations like this? And I realized that I didn't really have an answer. I realized that I had often experienced this situation when I was travelling and things got very intense. Her answer was: “Let it go!”. It's about accepting this moment, not wanting to force anything and fully surrendering to the process. My body knows exactly what it wants right now: nothing! It simply wants rest and relaxation. We often ignore ourselves and shy away from feeling. I now realize that everything is in perfect order and the situation shows that my journey is making a huge difference. It is now going really deep and my experiences, my grown self, can now be anchored in every cell. Everything wants to be integrated. And afterwards, an evolved version of myself is waiting for me. All I have to do is let go and surrender.

I wanted to share this process with you because I have the feeling that we often don't realize what is happening to us and how important these phases are. It is during these times that growth happens. And the result is a stronger and clearer version of yourself. Don't let this irritate you. Embrace it and let yourself be surprised by what changes. And in this new energy, there are more things waiting for you that suit you even better! If we know what is happening, we can even support the process. Everything happens for you!

I send you my best wishes from Norway!

Do you know these phases? How do you deal with them? Do you try to force things? Do you dare to add yourself or do you get ahead of yourself? What would do you the most good in these phases? How do you feel after this phase? What kind of person did you become afterwards?