The feeling that there is more to life

I'm writing in the middle of the night today, at 2:27 a.m. to be precise. There are so many things going through my head right now, especially the topic of vocation. I almost feel a little guilty writing this, as I'm very lucky to have found something professionally that I've really enjoyed for years and that I stand for. And yet I still have this feeling that there's more to it. I've actually always had this feeling since I was little, and it's been getting bigger and bigger over the last few years. The call for the “other” is increasing.

Maybe you know how you have this need to finally tackle what's yours, but you're not really sure what it is. You try out different things, are always euphoric at first and then, after a while, everyday life creeps in and the fire goes out again. After that, you feel frustrated, curse yourself for not continuing and withdraw in resignation. You doubt whether you can make it or whether it was perhaps just a delusion. But it doesn't have to be like that.

I think we sometimes forget that life has its own plan and that you simply can't force things to happen. There are certainly reasons why you are not yet experiencing what you would like and why your life is the way it is right now. Maybe there are still certain experiences to have and things to do before your wish comes true. Sometimes I get really impatient because I have this inner clarity that there is still something big, that all my creative energy wants to get out and I would love to live it right away. And then I remind myself that there are no coincidences and that I can trust life a little more. It is precisely at this moment that the inner turmoil dissolves again and clarity emerges.

We are often very strict with ourselves and have high expectations. I experience this again and again in my environment when people speak badly of themselves and only see what has not yet been done and achieved. Just today, a friend lovingly reminded me of everything I have already done and achieved in my rather short working life. We can see and honor the traces we have left behind and at the same time look forward with joy and let ourselves be guided by this “feeling”. In my view, there are no wrong turns in life, there are only experiences. I think we actually always do our best and act in the way we think is right at the moment - based on the awareness we have at the time. We don't know any better at that moment and so it's inevitably right. You can drive me crazy with “would-have-been-bicycle-chain”, because that doesn't help anyone and is pure self-sabotage. And if we were to do things differently later, it would be because we have learned and developed as people.

I would therefore like to call on you to try things out freely in life, to have your own experiences and simply relax about it. I believe that the point is that we get to know each other better and better over time. I'm incredibly excited about what's to come and what “this feeling” is actually trying to tell me. I'm sure that one day I'll know and be proud of myself for having drawn it into my life and actually living in the here and now. Believe in yourself and keep going - just follow your nose in the direction of the positive feelings! Then it can only be good!

Do you always have the feeling that something specific is still waiting in your life? Can you define exactly what it is? What are you thinking about? What experiences in your life are you particularly proud of? And what experiences would you like to have in the future? What are you looking forward to and what do you want to learn and experience? What kind of person do you want to be in a few years' time? What would make you proud?